I definitely feel like I have tons of different personalities throughout my daily life. If I were to take you through my daily routine you'f probably meet a Mckenzie you never thought you'd know.
Beginning at home I can tell you right now i'm an enormous pain. I love my sister but we rarely get along perfectly. We can never agree on things whether they're important or ridiculous and that causes lots of "screeching" (as my mom puts it) to ring throughout the house. To my parents I'm somewhat different. I really want to make them proud and do my best to please them. I mean of course i'm a teenager so I annoy them more than anything, but I also try to go the extra mile to help around the house or complete the tasks that need done. There are lots of extra daily events that take place in the Dorris household due to my sister and some of her new needs while off chemotherapy. Because of this and the past events i've been through I feel as if i'm become a very mature person at home. I take care of Larkin and the things she needs whenever my parents can't and i've become a personal assistant when not in charge. I enjoy helping and don't think I'll ever outgrow it.
Moving on to the moment I walk onto the school campus, I'm as immature as I can get. I think its an escape for me really. I home I feel like a lot depends on me and I have so much to prove, remember, and live up to. There's stress at school yes but my friends the family free environment just provide me with a sense of immaturity. I act like a kid and all of my friends can assure you of that. I don't act stupid or ridiculous just not uptight and mature like I am in front of my parents. I enjoy this Mckenzie the most I think, she's the girl I can be around my friends when i'm out or on campus, at sports or in a show, she's the Mckenzie I can be with myself.
When I enter the classroom some minor details are changed. I can say that yes i'm what you would call a "goodie two shoes" and unfortunately a lot of people know that. For the majority of my lower and middle school years I was copied off of and inquired of everyday during who knows what class because everyone just assumed I had the answers. What it really is is that fear of disappointing coming back. When I fail a test or screw up an assignment I get so angry with myself and I immediately want to improve. I pay attention in class because things don't always come as easily as people think they do. I have to work to know what I do.
Lastly for this post, when I reach my dance studio at the end of most every night, I just feel awesome. I love dance and the strength I seem to gain when I'm practicing or performing. The same goes for singing or acting, just being onstage and letting myself go is my favorite feeling. I also feel this sense of a team and the dependency we all have on one another when competing or performing difficult tasks. I love the feeling that i can try and eventually do anything i work for and I like to set goals for myself.
So i have the shy and uptight classroom Mckenzie, the loud and obnoxious 10 year old Mckenzie my friends all hopefully don't get too annoyed with, the hardworking worrisome stay home Mckenzie who really wants her sister to have the best life she can at this point, and the Mckenzie who is unafraid to put herself out there and reach new heights. I love all the Mckenzie's and they're all a huge part of Me.
Those are a lot of sides to you, and they all reflect on who you are. I think that having all these sides helps you escape when you need to, like school does for you.
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